Keep Bleedng Love

A couple of months ago, God kept allowing me to hear this song on the radio just skipping through the stations, and I can understand why He did now! The original version of the song has a whole different meaning than what God has allowed me to comprehend it as, but here's what the words mean to me... This song can be googled or heard on youtube.

KEEP BLEEDING LOVE-LEONA LEWIS

"Closed off from love I didn't need the pain - Once or twice was enough and it was all in vain - Time starts to pass Before you know it you're frozen..."
-We all have a sense to love in our hearts, which all comes from God. But, with sin in the world, we experience lust, cheating, sexual immorality, death, and lying... just to name a few. So, after pouring our hearts out, what happens when satan rolls in? We want to give up and not love again and then before we know it we are 'frozen' and closed off to any new love that might be brought our way, as doing this is a way to protect ourselves from getting hurt again.

"But something happened for the very first time with you - My heart melted into the ground, found something true - And everyone's looking 'round thinking I'm going crazy..."
-In my life, I was closed off to any type of church, religion, and very scared to have a relationship with anybody as I sincerely believed that it would Somehow end. Even if I found the 'right' church, or the 'right' guy who treated me the way my heart craved, I knew that the love and happiness would somehow end as either a result of death or the rule of the 'flesh'. But, when I found Jesus and He began to change me, He allowed me to see His truth, True love, Amazing power, and grace. Once that happened, I wanted to tell the World that He is Real and loves us all more than we can imagine, but yearns for a Relationship with us. When simply just praying and asking Him to give us His blessings, He wants to know that once He gives us those things, that we will continue to talk to Him and praise Him, as well as learn Who He is, as He already knows everything about us. Then, He wants us to proclaim all the great and miraculous things He does in our lives, as He wants everyone to see His light and experience the favor and freedom He has allowed us through grace. But, when we do that, the 'world' looks at us like we are crazy. Maybe we do act a little crazy, but He is worth being crazy over as He is the Only thing that lasts FOREVER and He has more love to give than Anyone human can give. There's Nothing better and more true to talk about than Him, and that drives most people crazy because it battles with their own conceived (most of the time deceived...) perceptions of who God is and who satan is, and it battles their flesh that does not want to let go.

Chorus:
"But I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you. They try to pull me away, but they don't know the truth. My heart's crippled by the vein That I keep on closing. You cut me open and I, Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love You cut me open"
-When expressing my love for Christ, I hear a lot of people trying to question the truth I believe in. All most people know and believe in is the things they can actually see, and things that make sense to them on a human level ... basing their own truth on their own human and so limited understanding, which leads them to believing in pretty much anything. However, since they care about and love me, they don't want me to be misled with what I believe ... in other words, they don't want me to invest my time/life into Someone/something that I will eventually come to find out is not actually real ... so they question me and compare the Bible's truth with their own 'truth'. In the meantime, I keep on trying to close relationships that I know could be beneficial and a blessing, due to the fear of being hurt again and not being able to handle the pain, or due to getting confronted with more debates and questions than I have the ability to answer. Sometimes it all feels like too much for me to deal with and I want to give up. In truth, I know that God wants to grow my trust in Him through all of this and learn to really rely on Him, rather than my own self ... hence, the flesh wanting to hang on ... But, God keeps opening and revealing His truth and love to me on a daily basis, which motivates me to persevere and endure. In the meantime, however, I have a love for Him on the inside that is growing so deep because I know it will Never end.

"Trying hard not to hear, but they talk so loud. Their piercing sounds fill my ears, try to fill me with doubt. Yet I know that their goal is to keep me from falling"
-This also regards to the things I said in the last paragraph.

"But nothing's greater than the rush that comes with your embrace - and in this world of loneliness I see your face - Yet everyone around me Thinks that I'm going crazy Maybe, maybe"
-These words say it perfectly and can be reflected back to what I have already spoke about previously.

"And it's draining all of me - Oh they find it hard to believe. I'll be wearing these scars for everyone to see"
-A lot of people find it hard to understand why I would deal with so much persecution and feelings of not belonging to the worlds ways and views, but I know the 'scars' are only temporary, as this life is just preparation for our Eternal home. We can be put through a Lot of hardships and trials for living for/with Jesus, but what matters is how we deal with them, as the results will be shown where we spend eternity. This life can seem So long, especially with all the pain and hurt we endure...living or not living for Him... but when we compare this life to eternity, this life is Extremely short.

No matter how much I try to close myself off from love and hurt from the world, God shines His amazing grace and love within my soul in ways that allows me to begin another new day of trying again. I used to think that 'time' was the worst thing in the world, as people would tell me "it will get better with time" and although that may have seemed like an encouragement to them, time really makes things so much worse if we don't have the Holy Spirit to strengthen us by Jesus' grace as we hold every thought captive to the obedience of Christ as we renew our minds with His Word. 'Time' has a great tendency to make us dwell upon past feelings and our current loneliness and pain, and it can end up coming to the point of total isolation due to not feeling understood and being so unique and different in comparison to others. His love is truly amazing, and if we continue to seek Him and have the desire to know Him, He will allow us to feel free, like we've never felt before. Sure, there will be days when we will want to shut ourselves out and choose our own selfish will over His, but God Will renew us if we allow Him to.